Yesterday I woke up tired and heavy-hearted.
Yesterday I remembered the testimonies I listened to the night before.
Yesterday I knew I had a choice to make. It would determine what type of day all of us would have.
I chose to be instead of do.
Be with my children. Be with my thoughts. Be with the pain. Be with myself.
Yesterday I was supposed to write a post here. I didn't.
Yesterday I was supposed to clean the house. I didn't.
Yesterday I was supposed to review edits for my new book. I didn't.
Instead, I read to my babies.
We listened to Sparkle Stories over breakfast while Mommy drank a cup of tea.
We made a loaf of bread.
We rested and watched a fun movie. We laughed.
Yesterday I stayed mostly offline. Instead of working, I started reading a new book.
In spite of those "should-do's" screaming for my attention, I chose peace instead of productivity.
It was the right choice.
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Today, I woke up excited.
Today the house will get cleaned, and I'll actually enjoy working alongside my little people.
Today the posts will get written, and the world didn't end because they're one day late.
Today my heart reminds me what a privilege it is living here at this time. Today I make a promise and dream of change.
Yesterday I took care of myself, so today I can care for others. And enjoy it.
"It is only possible to live happily everafter on a day to day basis."
~ Margaret
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